This isnt a poem.
But I need to get some feelings out.
I need more social skills, though most people dont feel it.
I am so bad at first encounters, I wish I had the balls to say hi sometimes.
I was on the train today, I seen a beautiful girl.
She had the prettiest blue eyes, and a warm and inviting smile.
When I got on the train I was a little taken back, because he smile was directed at me.
I sat down next to her, and I contemplated for a stop or two if I should say something.
I was literally going through all the things I could have said.
A few things I was thinking of were..
A simple hello..
A compliment on her smile..
Asking where shes headed..
Our eyes met a few times, I was so taken back.
But I couldn't get the courage to say hello, or even a stutter.
I could see disappointment in her face..
To boot we got off at the same stop.
I missed my chance at a new friendship due to my inability to say hello.
I'm beating myself up over this.
I am so down on myself..
My looks, my talent, my personality can all be better in my eyes...
Maybe if I were happier with myself, I could gain the courage I so desperately want.
Fuck. I want this year to end.
I want to go back to school, meet new people, and to stop feeling so alone.
"I'm looking at a chance to change my stars today.
Across the platform but that sure seems far away.
Youre on the Brookyln bound side, i live in Queens and in between a car just came.
If I could give you a sign with my mind or give a cough,thats corny.
But I dont want to find our signals crossed
But leave it up to chance, you just get upon the next train and jet and give me one next day regret." - Louis Logic
Fuck, I take shit for granted.
But I cant change how I feel
